Save Me From My Self-Destruction- Chapter 1

This is my first fic! The pairing is Joshayley and they're 17/18 and at school. Hayley's just moved from Mississippi and is starting a new school. Each chapter will have a certain lyric from a song that I think matches the chapter well. The song for this one is The End. by My Chemical Romance.

"If you look in the mirror and don't like what you see, you can find out first hand what it's like to be me"

Hayley's P.O.V

As I looked in the mirror, I was repulsed at what stared back. A twig of a girl, with an ugly face and figure. The only thing that made her look different was her cherry red hair, and even then she still looked pathetic to me. Nobody wanted a person with nice hair if they didn't have good looks and a curvy figure to go with it.

My mom was trying to convince me that this would be good, a fresh start. At least in Mississippi i knew a couple of nice-ish people, here I had nobody. The only reason mom had made me move here was because she had found out about the depression. Mom being mom though had decided not to take me to the doctors, but rather to try and treat me with herbal medicines instead. It was just as well she hadn't found out about the cutting, 'cause god knows what she'd try to do then.

As you probably guessed, none of my mom's treatments had worked. The depression had kicked in when I was 15, and now, 2 years later, it still hadn't shifted. If anything, I felt worse. In fact, thinking about it, i was a hell of a lot worse. In Meridian I used to try and beat it, to aim to stop. Now though, in the two weeks I had already been here, I had taken a blade to my skin almost every night. My bracelets were gradually growing and creeping up my arm in a desperate attempt to cover my scars. It would get even worse now that I was being forced to start school. Everybody would hate me, just like they had in Mississippi. I could just tell things were going to be bad.

"Hayley!", my mom yelled, pulling me from my thoughts, "you'll be late for school if you don't hurry up!". Sighing, I grabbed my school bag and pulled my sleeves down one more time, before heading down the stairs.

I would be very greatful for any comments/critisism that you have! I will try and update as soon as, that is saying that anybody reads it!

Becca xD